Frustration continues to Build

Wow, I can't believe I'm saying this, but it's been 7 weeks since my injury on the Rail Trail on September 24. When the injury happened I knew it was bad. I was in a world of pain, a pain different than I've ever felt before. I knew it was bad, and yet I seriously didn't anticipate writing a blog post 7 weeks post injury, and still not even close to returning to running. I just did not believe that my body could be held down at the mercy of an injury for that long. Did I think I was indestructible, no of course not, I've had injuries in the past, many of them. But almost always I've been able to muster up the willpower and ignore the pain to either be able to run straight through the injury, or at least return to running before the injury had healed completely. For instance, after the Around the Bay this March, I finished the race in incredible pain, not able to put any weight on my leg, however, guess what I was back running in about 2 and half weeks. With this one, I really am confused and unable to run through the pain. I don't even know what the injury is at the point. I was told by two doctors that the injury was a strained rectus femuris muscle (hip flexor), and that I would be back running before I knew it. But I do believe I was wrongly diagnosed since here I am at 7 weeks still unable to run, yet able to bike, swim, and lift all the weights in the world with zero pain in the hip. I can clip in to bike pedals and do sufferfest workouts till I'm dripping in sweat and my heart rate is through the roof with zero pain. I can kick while swimming as hard and as fast as I want with zero pain in the hip. This is really the one that confuses me more than anything and makes me question the diagnosis, since the flutter kick uses almost entirely hip flexors yet there is no pain. And get this, after my 1 and 45 minute swim today, I water ran with you guessed it zero pain. However, tonight I started Day One of a friend of mine's physiotherapist and Dad in New Brunswick elite runners return to run program post-injury and yet on the run portions (it was 5 minutes speed walk, 10 minutes (1min run, 1 min walk), 5 minutes speed walk -- 5 minutes total of running) my hip was in a lot of pain. Honestly, I can't even describe the pain. To me the origin of the pain, the fact the hip flexion doesn't hurt, the fact that I can water run without pain, but only running with weight bearing is what hurts says that there is an inert injury in the area, meaning either an avulsion fracture of the illiosoas muscle of the lesser trochanter on the femur, a stress fracture at the neck of the femur, or a tear of the labrum in the hip. In either case here I am sitting after 7 weeks still unsure of my injury, still in pain, and starting the get the feeling of will I ever be able to run again and if so will I be able to run at a high enough level to accomplish my goals in the sport. I'm sick and tired of people asking me if I ran that race or that one, or asking me if I'm back running yet, or if I'm running track, or how the hip progressing. I'm tired of seeing emails from the coaches about the week's workout schedule. I want to be back, I want to get better. Between this injury and the suspected stress fracture in my right tibia, I haven't been healthy for something like 3.5 months. Why did the Sports Med. Dr. I saw not refer me for an MRI or some sort of imaging right when the injury happened. Now I need to go back to him and say, "SO, ya it's been 2 months since I got injured I would like an MRI on the hip because it's still not better." And the Dr will probably say, "Okay sure I could get you in maybe in 2015 sometime, hopefully before easter." Meanwhile, other athletes get super special treatment, hurt their leg and get an MRI the next day. What am I not good enough. All I know is next time I go in to see the Dr. I'm not going to be  Mr. nice guy Frank saying please and thank you for whatever. I'm going to go in and really say what I'm thinking, "Really I don't care what you think or not about the injury or have to say, just write me the referral for an MRI."All I found out from tonights Day one of the program is I could speed walk pretty quickly when I swing my hips like those pro-speed walkers. I was going low 6 min/km pace for the 5 minute warmup and cool down.